My Grandmother

Last Thursday 19^th in the morning turned out to be a really sad day.  Someone passed away the night before.  Someone was a mother of nine children.  Someone lived to the fullest that she was almost a hundred years old.  I felt sympathy for my dad losing his mom but he understood that it was her time after she had been sick for the last two years.  She had been taken care from two nurses that her children hired to keep her health in stability and to keep her hair beautiful and silkily shine as it always was.  She lived this far just to watch her children making their story of lives, and watch her grandchildren building their futures and reaching their goals.  Now then her life was completed, and she wanted to be up there with the love of her life.  Her husband, who had been longing for her to hold his hand again.  God bless them to be together again after all.

Tree of Life never stops living from circle to circle but only one person will when the time stops clicking.  Life is amazing when two people creates someone new and walk their child to know the difference of choices, and at once a child becomes to be an adult, the parents reunited to each other.  When their child turns to be a parent, they become to be grand parents, swinging the chairs together to watch their grandchildren running wild.

Life is never enough for the life itself that goes on around and around....

Here is something I want to share.  I found this poem from no where years ago and it left me wondering and realizing how the life worked for everyone.

TIME

Life a living story of oneself

Life, a story that cannot read

New life, a young couple with

something new to love,

New life, a phrase some day

all can enjoy

Child life, a time of uncertainly

and a time to learn,

Child life, a time for knowing

right from wrong

Teen life, a time for fun,

and carefreeness,

Teen life, a time to grow and

mature for the days ahead

Early adult life, a time for

companionship

Adult life, a time to make

commitments

Married Life, a time for trust,

Married life, a time to show

affection

Parent life, a time to give of

your knowledge

Parent life, a time to see

your seed grow

Senior life, a time to look back

on the joy as health fails

Senior life, a time to grow

old until no more

Grandmother, I wish to know you better, where you came from, and how you were like as a person, but I love you anyway, and thank you for creating the most wonderful son.  I love my father, and I am very fortunate to be part of his life as he is part of mine.  You were amazing to give nine births, and spread them to many more, you had traveled all over the world to remind them that you loved them all in equal and let them fill your memories.  You are touched to each heart deeply and when you were gone, you left something in each of us...  your love.  

Life is Never Enough for Being a Mother

Watching her blossoming

Counting my grey hair

Keeping up with her sizes

Counting my wrinkles

Remembering her laughs

Counting days of my life

Saving her little things

Realizing my time goes by

Embracing her love

Giving my love

Life is never enough

For being a mother

That will always

Be there for her

Every reason she needs me

Live for her

That guides her to grow

Watch for her

As her life goes by

As my love for her

Will forever be there.

Remember... Remember...

Open your album book, look at all those precious pictures of the day you became to be a mother.  Remember the moment when you first learned that you were pregnant, remember the new change in your pregnancy that you may had vomited, or disliked to eat that you normally ate, remember those wonderful naps from heaven in the first trimester, remember the feelings that you realized that you were no longer sized 5 in jeans, remember to check the updated size for the bra each month as it grew bigger, remember the struggle you tried to comfort yourself on bed with probably ten pillows all around, remember how many times you had cried to the sentimental movies, remember the disappointment that you would not wear sexy sleep clothes but a huge ass T-Shirt, remember how funny you walked while your pony tail was really bouncing, remember how difficult you had to get out from the bath tub, remember to pick up foods from your breasts after it fell from your mouth while eating, remember the view from your eyes when you looked down, you could not see your feet anymore, remember the tiredness you tried to keep up with your beauty looks, remember the very uncomfortable feelings when you had to sit on the driver seat, and be sure your belly wasn’t touched to the wheel, remember the stretched marks that frightened you a lot, remember the movements on your belly, you laughed excitedly, remember all the warm love from your family, and friends even strangers,  remember the calendar that been marked by a day by a day that you had been looking forward to meet your beautiful baby, and remember the most longest day of your life that you, at last, had first your baby in your arms after the long struggle hours of birth. 

“Hello baby!  This is your Mommy!”  Remember the most precious and embraced moment when you called yourself Mommy to your baby, and those tears ran down on your cheek explained all the overwhelming emotional. 

9 long months of not only carrying a baby, but living through the changes of your body that you had to learn how to deal with, and learn how to make yourself feel better from all those morning sickness, discomforted from clothes fitting, sleeping comfort zone, especially wanting to have sex with your partner but concerned with how he would feel by seeing you naked with a whole huge belly, (however men have no problem with seeing originally boobs to the bigger size, right?  LOL) and those nervous thoughts if you could handle to be a mother but carrying a baby was the most beautiful experience you have ever had and those steps of being pregnancy was all the worthwhile of your life. 

Then you didn’t mind to get pregnant and go through all those steps again because having another baby in your arms surely blow your 9 months of struggle just in a second, and give you all the happiness, and the love has grown for your partner even more!! 

Happy Mother’s Day to all of you beautiful mothers especially grandmothers that watch your daughters becoming mothers! 

Life is never enough with such a gift to another…. 

FRIENDS & FAMILIES, Don't Judge without Knowing the Sides.

Judging on a person that u even know most of your life without asking to listen to his/her side.  I wonder, what thoughts do you have in mind?  Is it jealous that you see her or him being buddy-buddy with someone that had done wrong to you?  Feeling anger inside that you know you can’t control her or him to be friend with, or not to be friend with?  Or maybe you are afraid to lose this person again if she or he befriends with someone?

Of course, you can always tell her or him how you feel about whatever that makes you uncomfortable.  That is part of the communication key to keep friendship going however you don’t need to judge on her or him, or shout at her or him saying out loud that they are not smart enough to be befriend with someone.  You never know what their sides are if you keep on judging them simply because you dislike what you see or how you feel.

Come on, enough with judging especially you know this person for the most of your life, and people makes mistakes.  How about judge yourself because you are still making mistakes everyday. 

Yep, no one is perfect, we still make mistakes everyday even that we don’t realize. 

Well, if you don’t like what you see this person being buddy-buddy with someone, why not suggest an advice and don’t forget to mention how much you care for him or her, so they will feel appreciated, and cared from you, and who knows they will consider to listen and take your advice.  Judging make things worst and they will not listen to you at all and even tell you to mind your own business with the middle finger up to your face.  

So, that is YOUR mistake, don’t you realize that?

Don’t waste your time thinking so hard why they are friends.  Don’t waste your time judging on the person without knowing the sides.  Don’t waste your time out of nothing. 

:::Question:::

What are you doing right now at the moment?  Sitting alone, staring at the facebook just inches away from your face like you have no life, panting like a mad bull out of jealous and anger, looking at your phone, and you can not control how emotionally you are.  There you are texting, yelling, and judging at him or her.

Now, how do you feel?  Better?  Satisfied that you are over the top of the head that you are right at everything?

Really dumb, I am applauding and here is my advice.

Be prepared to say goodbye to the friendship, and weep. 

Judge yourself next time, alright?